Tonight I think I 'll walk alone...

So, I 've been thinking.

You know, when you start with such a start for an entry... too bad for the ones who read it.
I have no idea why I wish to write in English. Actually, I do. I am in big trouble.

Lately I've been reading and watching so many e-books and series in english that I have forgotten to express myself in greek. It's... aweful. Not the english part, I love that, it's the greek part. I 've had expression issues before, but now it's just... worse.

So, I 've been thinking. (Έεεεελα)

I've started to lose any hope and optimism I could possibly gather. Romantic? I used to be. Now I am startin to believe that emotions are useless. Only the idea of 'em is beautiful.

Sarcastic? No, just logical.

Why need love? It just.... tears you up and you are devastated when you could be having fun. Love exists only in books, movies and music. And the point where they end is because it's not an end. Fairytales have a happy ending because they haven't ended yet. You don't stay pale and young with red lips forever. You get old, tired, wrinkled and bored of the white prince and when your eye catches the bad boy you go straight for it.

I 'm getting all graphic again.

Every relationship is doomed to end, though. Nothing really lasts forever. No marriage, no relationship. I've been actually thinking that friendship lasts forever because it's not as strong a feeling (strong implies dangerous and harmful) as love.

Anyway, no matter what I say, it's not gonna change the fact that people will always fall in love, have faith in it again and then get torn apart again. The person is a humane glass ready to break over and over again until there's nothin left but shards of what they used to be. But that's the balance of life, isn't it? Sometimes losing balance over love is part of a balanced life.

I am off. Maybe I'll find my soul as I go home...

Go ahead, Stefan. Torture me. Keep me captive. Drain me of my blood until my body turns to dust but it will never change the truth. I never compelled your love. It was real. And so was mine.

Heaven
A gateway to hope
Just like a feeling
I need, it's no joke

And though it hurts me
To see you this way
Betrayed by words
I'd never heard
Too hard to say them

Up, down, turn around; please don't let me hit the ground
Tonight I think I'll walk alone; find my soul as I go home
[2x]

Oh it's the last time, it's the last time
Oh it's the last time, it's the last time

Each way I turn
I know I'll always try
To break the circle
That has been placed round me

From time to time
I find I lost
Some meaning
That was urgent
To myself
I do believe

Oh, up, down, turn around; please don't let me hit the ground
Tonight I think I'll walk alone; find my soul as I go home
[2x]

Oh it's the last time, it's the last time
Oh it's the last time, it's the last time

And I've never met anyone quite like you before
And I've never met anyone quite like you before
[2x]

And I've never met anyone quite like you before
Oh, up, down, turn around; please don't let me hit the ground
Tonight I think I'll walk alone; find my soul as I go home

And I've never met anyone quite like you before
Up, down, turn around; please don't let me hit the ground
Tonight I think I'll walk alone; find my soul as I go home

Up, down, turn around; please don't let me hit the ground
Tonight I think I'll walk alone; find my soul as I go home
[2x]

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